The past two days have been a real challenge. What’s up with that?
I woke up today wondering how from one moment to the next you can have such a shift in mood. Often there are triggers that we build into our psyche that propel us to a place and time of our past in and instant. I think that happened to me the other day. When I reflect back on my past, I meet up with some darkness and significant sadness. I wanted nothing more for my parents and family to have peace, love and joy in their lives but couldn’t manage that. For years there was one thing after another seemingly knocking them down from all sides of their lives, and I could feel their pain. I guess the most important statement here is “their pain”, not mine, yet, I’m still connected to it, it’s embedded in my very being. I’m not going to go into the stories here, but there in my book.
We go on with our experience of feelings and thoughts, digging under and mulling over their significance. We live every moment a collection of past thoughts, experiences and reflective moments. The depth of our feelings and senses clouded at times by reaction. So today, I once again have to remind myself of what I want my walk and talk to be about. Being love, patience, and offering support and understanding to all. Thanks for being there.
”Blessings on your journey”