Day 36 and 37
From my book “Living and Dying”
The process of holding onto a belief and the hope of new life, both in our outer and inner world, is one that transforms us daily. Although we may not always be aware of it, our minds are processing this information daily as we navigate the battlefield of hope and despair, love and hate, resentment and forgiveness. It is a world of opposites that we battle with, and it is a world that many call reality. While we can choose not to have that be our reality, we are bombarded by the experiences and events that shape our “reality” through our attention to it.
“Living from Your Soul,” a course that Neil Donald Walsh moderates, has taught me how the process of creating our reality really works. More importantly, it has shown me how we choose to lose our connection with our source of being. In the course, I have come to learn about and experience how the mechanics of the mind and the system of the soul work. I would encourage any of you, if interested, to consider finding him online or to look for his books: Conversations with God, The Only Thing That Matters, and What God Said, in addition to many others.
When we consider the idea of “taking our temperature,” what we are doing is checking in with our internal nature, our divine spark, or how we feel at any given moment. If you are not doing it daily, I highly recommend you consider it. If we cannot experience the feeling, we become numb to what is happening around us on a daily basis. If we cannot feel, we cannot provide the necessary medicine to help in the healing. If we cannot feel, we cannot celebrate the moments of joy and love that permeate our lives daily. If we cannot feel, we are paralyzed. When being paralyzed affects our life (as it does to all of us at times), it means there is no movement. If there is no movement, there is no expression of energy and there is no emotion.
I would like to suggest that emotion is the key to our ability to live a healthy life. Without it, we are paralyzed. I have had many, many years of trying to maintain a state of being without emotion (just ask my wife), thinking this would lead to spiritual growth. For twenty years I tried to exercise my mental powers to achieve a higher state of awareness. Although I achieved awareness and knowledge of many spiritual truths, the experience of those truths were not felt or experienced, they were just ideas in my mind. At the time, it made perfect sense to me. I thought that because I was not experiencing feelings (things associated with the physical body), I must be living a spiritual existence.
What I’ve come to learn is that by not expressing the truths I had come to know, I had in fact created a self paralysis with no movement. I was just somebody who thought he was really spiritual and smart :-). If we try to ignore or limit our connection with the body and emotion, we limit our experience. If we deny this connection of spirit and body, we limit our experience. I now believe we were put here to experience it all.
What I have learned is that with emotion, life is more fun and interesting, and I am more passionate, caring and loving. It is the emotion, created by my thought, which causes a reaction. That reaction is the energy that creates activity and motion, and without it, there is no movement. If there were no emotion I would not be able to write this book, get up in the morning, or do anything. Emotion is the power that drives us and therefore, emotion plays an important part in the lives we live.
The energy associated with emotion is very strong and one that can be very difficult to embrace. It will cause us to move out of our comfort zone, and it will challenge us to what feels like a breaking point. It will feel large, in charge, and scary at times, but it has its purpose. It is there to move us toward something new. It is there to make us choose. It is there for our own good, to shock us out of our old patterns. It is there to be embraced and it will move us towards love. The dilemma in all of this is that we have a choice.
In the many years I devoted to limiting emotion in my life, I was in a constant war with myself. In my new experience of embracing and choosing emotion (e=motion) I have blossomed to do many new things and have grown in many ways. It has been challenging, and I do fall off course. But if I were to have to do it over again, I would choose the course of energy and motion.
I have always loved the quote “When in life have you learned the most, when everything was easy or when you were most challenged?” In my experience, all of my major growth has taken place in change and movement from one place to another. Perhaps that is why I chose funeral service. Is there any other experience that challenges us to move from one place to another that is more profound? I think not.
“Blessings on your journey”