Day 97 – from my book “Living and Dying”
As I look around the field of experience and energy in the world, I see movement towards a new and exciting place. It brings with it feelings of trepidation but underlying our fear, I sense a feeling of hope. It is as if our place in the world has moved a little because it may feel a little odd and strange.
It is a gray and rainy day where I sit today. The trees are just beginning to bud, and you can feel and smell that Spring is here. The birds wake me up each morning, and I watch their excitement and exuberance at the feeder. Any day now, life will burst through the binding that holds it and bring with it a new expression of the same life that has always been there, always connected but hidden from our view through the winter months. I remember last year, and the years before, where I had the same feelings and thoughts, yet I hope that somehow today I will grow and blossom into a better place.
While my view of the world outside reflects the darkness in my mind and darkness in the world around me, I know that if I can find a new thought to hang on to, a new place of hope, a hopeful connection, perhaps I can escape from the damp and dreary hole of self despair. You see, it is the memory of new life that highlights my connection with despair, and I need to remind myself that it is only a thought, a memory of the past. If I can change my thought, I can change my world. When I look out into the world today I can choose to see only new life. I will choose not to accept the memory of despair, because that is not what is real for me today. It is only a trap of my mind, a memory of the past.
”Blessings on your journey”