Many of you know the story of my birth mother and father divorcing when I was a child. I’ve have had many years to play the story around in my head because I never heard the whole story from either parent. It was obvious that there was significant pain attached to their life story and family history, and I did not want to add more discomfort or stress to their lives. It was obvious that just my presence was a reminder and difficult enough. I had a good life growing up with my father and his extended family. I did not spend any time with my mother or her family until after I was married. Although I was never told I was loved by my parents, I experienced love from my family.
Lately I have been somewhat consumed by the fact there are no pictures, no history or evidence of me as a child with my mother and father. As you can imagine its had its affect on me. I have often given it thought as I examine the layers and layers of emotions and circumstance. I have played out all the angles in my mind, I have imagined all the possibilities and difficulties leaving me with the only option, forgiveness.
“Blessings on your journey”
and ultimately, forgiveness is the only option for everything. The one problem is separation, which you experienced so deeply and emotionally and only forgiveness re-connects us with God, with each other, and with our Self. You are blessed and a blessing, Mark. Love you.
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Thanks for your sharing Mark and revealing your tender heart. I am taking a class right now on forgiveness and I’ll happyily share some of the exercises with you when I’m done. Peace Camille
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Mark, I knew your history and want to say that it is amazing that you are not bitter . You turned out to be a kind man with integrity and much love for others. I cannot imagine what journey you went through, coming to acceptance, but knowing you I would expect nothing less. Keep up the blogs, they really make me think.
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You are a love Betsy Brockway!
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