I’m feeling alone right now, And, I love that!

A good friend reminded me of a post I did last year at this time. Here it is!
Most every night if I wakeup, I have some kind of an experience.  Last night, I woke up feeling alone. Not scared or fearful, just feeling alone.  Until I fell asleep again, I lay there with that thought, why do I feel alone?  As I sit here this morning after my meditation and putting the final touches on a memorial video honoring families we served this past year, and in this moment, I’m feeling confused.  Are we alone? Are we living and dying on our own?  Every one of those 65 pictures I placed on the video timeline died and lived on their own.  Their stories reflecting a past of experience shared by many, weaving a tapestry of many colors and size I know little about.  How did they deal or work with that? How do I work with that? It makes the times in which I live feel different somehow.  When I look at the pictures I see faces of every age and circumstance, young, old, sick, healthy.  The stories peel off in all directions with the final outcome the same.
So, I took a break from writing this post as the conclusion to my thinking was “OK, I’m alone” and I wasn’t terribly happy about how that felt.  After all, I’ve studied, researched, and believe in a universal consciousness, that we are all connected and one with each other, yet I’m still feeling alone somehow.  Whats up with that?  If I really believed that, I shouldn’t feel alone, right? And, maybe it’s just mental chatter designed to distract me.  In the car as I drove to the lake house this morning, I remembered the saying “and I love that“.  During a recent transformational moment, Kyle Cease taught me this exercise to use when I needed a wake up call.  It goes something like, “I’m feeling alone right now, and, I love that”. As soon as I committed to those words (and I love that), my feeling of being alone changed in an instant “and I love that”.  A smile returned to my face, the struggle, the internal feeling of being alone, gone.  It felt like hitting the refresh button on my computer, a new screen cleaned and refreshed from what was once there. Try it yourself sometime.  In that very moment I switched the radio station to some christmas carols and the song Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas came on, these words specifically.
Once again as in olden days
Happy golden days of yore
Faithful friends who are dear to us
Will be near to us, once more
Someday soon we all will be together
If the fates allow
Until then we’ll to muddle through somehow
So have yourself a merry little Christmas now
With all my muddling done for the moment, I’ll rest assured that faithful friends who are dear to us will be near to us, once more.
“Blessings on your journey”

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