100 Days

A while back I embarked on a journey of personal discovery. After returning from a transformational event in Los Angeles, I made the commitment to meditate for 1 hour each day and examine my life as it is, and where it could be. It had always been a belief that my thinking was a result of past events and experiences and that if I could find a way to transition past my old thinking, I could find a new place to be, a new normal, living in the moment.

Many of the people in these groups used video to post their daily revelations. I chose to do a daily report for 100 days and used writing to report my thoughts uncovered during meditation.

After over 450 daily posts I’ve decided to share these posts in a new book. I have learned that hearing the stories and reflections of others experience we can notice our own voice respond and resonate or not, bringing clarity and newness to our lives. Today I begin the process of transferring and editing and look forward to the day where I can connect with you and others willing.

“Blessings on you journey”


Moments of profundity!

With the 18 anniversary of the tragedy at the World Trade Center in NYC behind us, it causes me pause. Pause to remember the intensity of feelings and reactions surrounding this horrific act. My reaction and the reaction of all of those around me reached pinnacles of dis-belief I had never experienced before. Shock, dis-belief, anger, fear, and eventually profound sadness and empathy as we began to hear the numbers of those affected by it.

We were Ill prepared for that profound and monumental event. Our reactions lasted days, weeks, months, years and to those affected most closely, it still exists. In our lives we have moments of profundity, moments where we are tested, pushed, prodded and moved. We will continue to struggle and learn, grow and be strong, find hope and love even in its midst. We will.

“Blessings on your journey”


Let it Be!

When I find myself in times of trouble, Mother Mary comes to me, speaking words of wisdom, Let it Be!! Let it Be!!

In this world every single one of us is unique, one of a kind, special and important. We were born into this world to be unique and different. We came here to learn this, so, Let it Be. Let it Be, when we disagree; Let it Be, when we hurt or are hurt; Let it Be, when we struggle; Let it Be, in times of trouble.

When we can’t Let it Be, and, we place our thoughts and energy on our troubles, we bring them power and magnify our differences. This energetic mis-alignment is what creates chaos and suffering.

We were designed to be different and unique, we do not all think the same or feel the same way. Let it Be, Let it Be!! It is a journey of profound and magical opportunity and design, and, all to often we loose our way. Let it Be.

“Blessings on your journey”


Oh say, can you see?

This past Sunday night I had the opportunity to listen and share in the musical genius of Chris Wilson at Vitale Park on Conesus Lake. Whenever and wherever Chris sings and plays his guitar he presents an honest and heartfelt experience for those who have the ability to hear and experience it. This particular night he made the effort halfway through his show to throw down some political comments. The underlining message being, we all have our ideas and differences but there is a place we can meet together and “oh, by the way check this out”. He began his rendition of our National Anthem, slowed down and executed in a way that commanded, invited and pulled us all in. As he slowly eased into the song and as we all became aware of what song it was, people began to stand and place their hands on their hearts. In that moment I was taken back by the rush of emotion that waved over and through me as people of all denominations, political beliefs, races, cultures responded in unison to the pull of a common theme. The pull of freedom and justice for all, the pull of unity in a common belief. Here is a clip of that moment, I hope that you too can feel the pull too.

“Blessings on your journey”

What’s your excuse?

Summer has been my excuse for not writing daily, or so it seems. The only problem with that is my minds thoughts and ideas haven’t taken the same break, producing within me a feeling of guilt and not living fully in the moment. I’ve realized all along that writing was a great vehicle for me to express my authenticity and truth, and by sharing openly I was doing my part in bringing hope and a sense of normalcy to a world in need of both. I’ve also realized that it takes significant effort and time to do so.

Perhaps you haven’t noticed, perhaps you have, perhaps you are doing the same thing, perhaps its a good thing, perhaps its a bad thing, perhaps it doesn’t really matter, perhaps it matters. Perhaps its all of the above. I believe that we experience all of these ideas in life, generating fear, peace, indifference, love, etc. It is a fundamental reality of human existence.

I also believe that as we live our lives, we store the history of fear and angst and we store the history of love and peace caused by our reactions to events and the feelings created by those experiences. Those experiences can cause us to be critical, cause us to question, cause us to get stuck in self doubt, and conversely cause us to expect and chase love and peace in our lives. Living is tough work.

Quite often in life’s events, we can find ourselves ill-prepared to deal with these events emotionally. When this happens these emotional experiences and feelings get added, (recorded) to our history. They become part of who we think we are, and the baggage we drag through our existence. It can shut down our ability to feel, it can cause behavior and emotional instability so difficult to handle we need to fill the void with drugs, hurtful behaviors and situations. No need to give any more examples here, just take a look around.

The solution I feel we need to consider is practicing gratitude. You’ve all heard about the sentiment of gratitude, we all know about it, but do we practice it? It’s hard sometimes because life’s hard sometimes and we carry a history of feelings and experiences that affect our behavior. There are days that I don’t even realize I’m depressed and I don’t know why. Now, I know that my feelings of depression, despair, unworthiness etc. are probably just part of the baggage I’ve been dragging around. By knowing that, I can set it down, put it aside for a moment and turn my attention to where the good is happening around me. I can alter my direction and adjust my feelings (we all can do this). At first its hard and uncomfortable, it requires practice and if the truth be known, I want it to be easy.

“Blessings on your journey”