I am fine

I wrote this a year ago. Giddy up!!

I am fine, not bad, not good, fine.  I will be OK.  Even in the midst of todays challenges, I will be OK.  If I die tomorrow, I will be OK.  If anyone else dies tomorrow, I will be Ok.  If my house burns down, I will be OK.  If one of my employees quit, if I fail to connect or satisfy a family in our business for whatever reason, If I fail as a mentor or boss, I will be OK.  If I fail as a husband, father or friend, I will be OK.  (Insert your ideas here!)

I will be OK because I don’t want or choose the other options, and I will learn.

While my thoughts are a little dark today and I don’t naturally want any of the above things to happen, they will to someone.  And while many of life’s changes are scary to me they will also challenge and be scary to others I know.  I also recognize any major changes in my life will change me in different ways.  I will be forced out, or have to step out of  my comfort zone into areas that make me stretch, take risks, and possibly even enter areas with unknown consequences and results.

First, I will practice stretching outside of my comfort zone (ex. blogging)  When I’m comfortable living in the stretch zone, I will practice in the risk zone (ex. writing a book).  When I’m comfortable living in the risk zone, I will move out into the unknown zone (TBD)  My goal is to be so comfortable at living in the unknown area (my new comfort zone) that there would be nothing that could concern, scare of worry me.  Join me!!

”Blessings on your journey”

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Bring it!

Folks, in case you were wondering with all the banter and noise in our world, we’re all in this together.  So, let’s bring it!!

Our fates are tied. We have this strange notion on this planet that our fates are not tied. If it were not so we would not be here together. It’s that simple.   LUISAH TEISH

”Blessings on your journey”

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Farewell

Change –it’s the constant of our lives. With every stage of living, we lose people, places and things that we love. We may not lose them to death, but saying ‘good-bye’ to those who are leaving us, saying ‘until we meet again’, ‘farewell’ to places, things or those left behind as we journey forth -each is an event which is similar to death.  In each, we die, we end something, just a little.

Each event, each change is worthy of remembrance, gratitude, acceptance, and each deserves to be released. We must let go, and move on; it is apart of living and dying, after all, there are many new people, places, things and animal companions just waiting for us to meet, and to love. New life, new journeys, stories, relationships, etc emerge from that which leaves us. Think of a hillside after a forest fire. It usually springs beautiful flowers through the ashen laid hills of the burnt ash, it is a vital part of life’s cycle of renewal.

Let us open the doors of our hearts and embrace all of our goodbyes and hello’s, let us carry them with us in our hearts and memories.

And let us be be well, and fare well!!

”Blessings on your journey”

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Left alone

Many of you know the story of my birth mother and father divorcing when I was a child.  I’ve have had many years to play the story around in my head because I never heard the whole story from either parent. It was obvious that there was significant pain attached to their life story and family history, and I did not want to add more discomfort or stress to their lives.  It was obvious that just my presence was a reminder and difficult enough.  I had a good life growing up with my father and his extended family. I did not spend any time with my mother or her family until after I was married. Although I was never told I was loved by my parents, I experienced love from my family.

Lately I have been somewhat consumed by the fact there are no pictures, no history or evidence of me as a child with my mother and father.  As you can imagine its had its affect on me.  I have often given it thought as I examine the layers and layers of emotions and circumstance.  I have played out all the angles in my mind, I have imagined all the possibilities and difficulties leaving me with the only option, forgiveness.

“Blessings on your journey”

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We’re not perfect

I’m feeling very vulnerable today. Truth is, this feeling has been going on for a few days now, and it leaves me feeling very unsettled. There has been a number of things going on. Energetic highs and lows, emotional upheaval and new opportunities to step out in new exciting directions. Dramatic change in a world full of energetic upheaval and fear.

Being one who likes to resolve and process life in a swift and direct manner, I find it difficult to navigate at times. My thoughts, energy and mannerisms not understood or welcomed, hinder me and cause me distress. There are many times when I just want to get a big glass of wine and go to sleep, or check out in any way. I know it’s me and I know I’m doing it, yet sometimes I can’t stop, it’s a part of who I am.

We all have been programmed through our families, life experiences, cultural times of our upbringing and obstacles faced. What we’ve learned and how we’ve learned to deal with them is what we should be focusing on. We see daily in our news the same programming in our clergy, politicians, entertainers, and everyday people who struggle with that part of them, it’s part of who they were or are, their life’s experiences.

So, as we continue to navigate the cultural discussions, and changes the world is offering up around us everyday let’s remember, we are all a product of who and where we came from. Let’s remember, that who we were is not necessarily who we are now and that we can change, as uncomfortable and unsettling as that is. Let’s remember we’re not perfect, that we’re flawed, broken and looking for redemption, acceptance and love.

“Blessings on your Journey ”

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Dancing waters

Every so often we get the opportunity to see water dance.  It is a beautiful reflection of vibrational energy.  Typically when the wind blows you see waves moving in the direction of the wind, an invisible force appearing to move the water in one direction or another.  Today the water appears to be jumping up and down as if in place (the dance), but when you look real close, it is still moving in the winds direction.  This dancing water has been present for many days this month.  It catches my attention and brings me a sense of wonder, joy and a smile to my face.  It reminds me that even when we don’t see movement in a familiar direction or way, there is still movement and energy present.  When we have those days of boredom, feeling down and inactive (which I’ve been having lately) it’s a good possibility we’re just not seeing everything and maybe missing the dance!

”Blessings on your journey”

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Embrace it all

Yesterday I received a comment from a dear friend suggesting there are some things that never can be forgiven. She said you can accept it and move on but forgiveness is not always possible.  If after asking the three universal questions that’s what you come up with, so be it, that would be your resolution

What would You have me do?

Where would You have me go?

What would You have me say, and to whom?”

I have found for me that forgiving others is essential for my spiritual growth. Wayne Dyer says this about forgiveness: “Your experience of someone who has hurt you, while painful, is now nothing more than a thought or feeling that you carry around. These thoughts of resentment, anger, and hatred represent slow, debilitating energies that will dis-empower you if you continue to let these thoughts occupy space in your head. If you could release them, you would know more peace.”

As many of you know my mother gave up custody and all contact with me at the age  of three years old.  I will not bore you with the details (you can read about that in my book) but there was a time when I thought I could never forgive my mother or any parent who could do that to their child.  I use this as an example of how my thinking allowed me to carry thoughts of resentment and anger around with me that would surface from time to time.  On occasion I have flashbacks of these thoughts and my experience but for the most part I am at total peace with her, and the events that created it.

My three questions,

What would you have me do?  Love her, love my father, my family and the circumstances, but most importantly love myself

Where would you have me go?  I was moved to connect with her and her family at the age of 28 and more importantly, moved to be the best husband and father I could be!!

What would you have me say and to whom?  Tell both my parents and those who raised me that I love them. Tell my children I love them regularly.

Wayne Dyer among other many wonderful teachers I worked with in my life time were a great gift to me.  All of life’s experiences moved me forward on my spiritual path.  They provided me a vision and direction to move in.  Here is what Wayne Dyer says about our history.  “Your past history and all of your hurts are no longer here in your physical reality. Don’t allow them to be here in your mind, muddying your present moments. Your life is like a play with several acts. Some of the characters who enter have short roles to play, others, much larger. Some are villains and others are good guys. But all of them are necessary, otherwise they wouldn’t be in the play. Embrace them all, and move on to the next act.”

”Blessings on your journey”

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