Sunday thoughts

Day 16 – Thoughts from things I’m reading!

As a number of my previous posts has reflected, this period of time in history is full of difficulty for a lot of human beings.  Through these reflections you may feel less alone knowing you are not being singled out.  If we keep this in mind, and continue to trust that we are loved even when things are hard, it helps us bear the difficult time with grace.

There are extreme energy changes pulsing through the universe at every level and, of course, we are all part of the growing process and the growing pains. It helps if we remember that life is one phase after another and that this difficult time will inevitably give way to something new and different. Change can be a beautiful thing yet met with resistance. This too shall pass.

At the same time, if you truly feel that nothing is going right for you, it’s never a bad idea to examine your life and see if there are some changes you can make to alleviate some of the difficulty. Gently and compassionately exploring the areas giving you the most trouble may reveal things you are holding onto and need to release: unprocessed emotions, unresolved transitions, or negative ways of looking at yourself or reality. As you take responsibility for the things you can change, you can more easily surrender to the things you can’t, remembering all the while that this phase will, without doubt, give way to another. My book “Living and Dying” is a great example of how this process can work.

If you’ve been following Jim Carrey at all, you would have noticed some significant change in him personally.  From some interesting notes on the documentary Jim and Andy,  documentarian Chris Smith opens the full-length doc posing a question to its star, “So, Jim. How would you start this movie? The now fully-bearded Carrey with an air of calm and serenity more often attributed to Buddhist monks, ponders his reply and aptly turns the question on its head: “Well, if I had my choice, it wouldn’t start at all,” he says into camera. “It would already have been. And it wouldn’t end either,” ending the latter with a grin. “You know?”
The Netflix-VICE Documentary Films production focuses more on Carrey’s portrayal of Andy Kaufman—both on and off camera — during filming of the 1999 Miloš Forman-helmed Man on the Moon. Though fans can catch moments of the actor speaking truthfully to his own life, fame and trajectory.
“Jim Carrey is a great character and I was lucky to get the part.” — Jim Carrey, on Jimmy Kimmel Live! (2017)
“But I don’t think of that as me anymore.”
A fresh-faced Jim from a 1983 interview eerily reveals a peek into his future. Speaking about the possibility of becoming so famous he’d not be able to walk down the street, the wide-eyed up-and-comer smiles, puts on a goofy voice and says, “Won’t that be fun?” then pulls a face as he laughs. “Where it’ll be impossible to walk anywhere without being recognized.” He then pauses and looks down in subtle reflection.
It’s juxtaposed with a cut to the documentary’s current interview with a now-pensive Carrey where he breaks down the fame game (in regards to Andy playing Latka on Taxi, but also speaking to acting in general): “At some point, when you create yourself to make it, you’re going to have to either let that creation go, and take a chance on being loved or hated for who you really are, or you’re gonna have to kill who you really are…” [a pause as he looks straight into camera] “…and fall into your grave grasping onto a character that you never were.”
Later in the film, he returns to this character vs. real person theme, “I think sometimes people that exist so completely in their character, and maybe not know how to get out of it, or how to take another road, might take the ultimate road, you know? Where they, uh… they have to actually leave the, uh… the planet. You know, to get out.”

Smith gets some sense of closure from his documentary subject, when asking how playing Kaufman changed him and where he feels he stands today. Carrey responds with a glimmer of enlightened hope, “I truly feel like if you ask me where I live right now, where the real me is, I would say that there’s a quiet, gentle seat in the universe that seems to contain everything, and that’s where I am.”

“I don’t have to go anywhere. That’s fascinating to me now, the disappearing.” — Jim Carrey, in Jim & Andy (2017)

“Blessings on your journey”

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Feeling it!

Today I’m taken by the colors, smells, movement and vastness of the local environment. The way the tide reacts in the inlet, the sun reflecting off the sea, the smells of salt water and rotting sea weeds, similar yet unique based on our unique experience with it. The people around me, what do they see when they look out at the world? What do they sense and feel?

I’ve learned that we each see our own reality, through lenses unique to our past history, imagination, opinions, awareness. I began my experience today through my unique lens, “my reality” and I’m having it right now.

Today, I wanted to share the picture above which moments ago was my reality. Its not intended to have any opinions, judgments, or specific feelings attached to it, so feel free to attach yours.

“Blessings on your journey”

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Spinning?

Day 14

Two weeks ago I started on this 100 day journey to share my inner most thoughts in a public forum.  I did this to share an authentic and honest viewpoint about what was spinning about in my world.  There is just so much spinning, some days I don’t know where to begin.  Initially I thought a lot of people would read the blog and join in the conversation.  I’m beginning to realize how impractical that is, as we all are consumed by our own living.  I see how that has become habit for us, as I too, am consumed by my own living.  I am not always present in the moment and being the greatest gift I can be to all.  I find it takes a lot of work and is often easier to be a gift to strangers or friends over family, do you?

After 14 days it appears I need to a better job with those closest to me in my life.  Let’s see where the next 86 days take me.  Thanks for tagging along, and please invite your friends and family to join the conversation.  that could be fun!!

”Blessings on your journey”

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Reflection

Today I sit here in Florida, over looking the pool and the Ft Pierce Inlet.  It’s around 78 degrees, with 70% humidity and winds at 7mph.  From this view all indications point towards a delightful day of sun and warm weather, with the hope of some fresh caught fish for lunch.  Just behind me in the living space of the condo is the television spewing out story after story of a world gone wrong.  On my phone is a contractor not willing to take responsibility for his work.  People are dying, eight new families at our funeral chapel in the last 48 hours, challenged by personal loss. And, the list goes on.

I will go out into this day knowing that I can choose to bring the reflection of pain and hurt or love and acceptance.  I will make the effort to see the reflection of good in the people and world.  It will not change what I heard on tv for that is the past, but, it will change the future or what I see now.  It will require my effort and it will bring forth a miracle, I can already feel it.  This simple exercise of sitting quietly and writing has changed everything.  I invite you to do the same.

“Blessings on your journey”

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Big stuff!

I’m traveling today and decided to pull out a post I wrote a few days before I went live with my blog.  I thought we could all use a little pick me up from the last three days.

I woke up at 3am last night thinking of the song “Mr. Big Shot, Who do you think you are”, by Jean Knight. Although I thought it was Mr big shot, it is actually Mr. Big Stuff!! Anyway, Mr Big Stuff still works because being a spiritual being capable and deserving of all things is pretty big stuff.

As I reflect on my life’s journey, I was always ready to step up and to do the big thing, win the big game or make the big move (take the chance). While everyone doesn’t share my vision, belief and enthusiasm for doing the big stuff, it makes me wonder.
Isn’t it possible, to be capable of all things and have all of life’s trophy’s, while maintaining peace, joy and love? Isn’t that possible? I think it is. Is fear of failure, ridicule and change, holding us back from success? Are we just to damn lazy, or do we feel unworthy and undeserving (the list goes on).

For the past few months, I have been waiting for the magic to just appear, after all I am a spiritual being and deserving of all things. I’ve been waiting for the event or the thought that would propel me once again into the magic energy field, the universal arena.

I finally accepted that I haven’t been ready and probably a little scared to step out into that arena. All the things I thought I believed, preach and practice had been on hold as if in a state of suspended animation. Not really sure why, but “enter blogging”.  I know I don’t know everything, but when I close my eyes, trust and listen all things are possible.

Here I am Lord. Welcome to my blog!

“Blessings on your Journey”

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Moods

The past two days have been a real challenge.  What’s up with that?

I woke up today wondering how from one moment to the next you can have such a shift in mood.  Often there are triggers that we build into our psyche that propel us to a place and time of our past in and instant.  I think that happened to me the other day.  When I reflect back on my past, I meet up with some darkness and significant sadness.  I wanted nothing more for my parents and family to have peace, love and joy in their lives but couldn’t manage that.  For years there was one thing after another seemingly knocking them down from all sides of their lives, and I could feel their pain. I guess the most important statement here is “their pain”, not mine, yet, I’m still connected to it, it’s embedded in my very being.   I’m not going to go into the stories here, but there in my book.

We go on with our experience of feelings and thoughts, digging under and mulling over their significance.  We live every moment a collection of past thoughts, experiences and reflective moments.  The depth of our feelings and senses clouded at times by reaction.   So today, I once again have to remind myself of what I want my walk and talk to be about.  Being love, patience, and offering support and understanding to all.  Thanks for being there.

”Blessings on your journey”

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Walking your talk

Day 10

The holidays can be a stressful time for people.  For many years I would go in and out of depression around thanksgiving and christmas, following the familiar patterns of my family.  I tried excessive drinking and abusive behavior to feel better (familiar patterns), but to no avail.  After many years, I made a conscious effort to change that pattern.  I learned a new way to embrace the holidays by “being” the gift of peace, joy and love.  Yesterday I tried playing the old way again, and lost.

Today, is a new day.

Throughout our lives, we have nothing but opportunities for transcendence and transformation! To change the form of the thing and by changing it, we learn from it and discover some higher order of capacity.  Then it happens, of course, that in your meditation you discover that you haven’t really walked your talk, as completely as you ought to have. Aren’t there some things that you could do better in your relationships with other people? And the answer is, yes absolutely, and I continue to work on that, even today.

Our lives are formed not just by the conflicts that we’ve experienced, but by the ones we’ve not resolved – Ken Cloke

 

“Blessings on your journey”