Euthanizing our dog

Today I have thoughts about animation. In my meditation this morning I remembered the experience of euthanizing our dog Lucy.  It then progressed to my parents deaths and all those I am privelaged to be apart of every day in my work. There is an energy, a power that emanates from each one of us.  It is a power that animates our world.  When we see a body that has died we see an inanimate object.  In Lucy’s case, I first had her sedated so she would lie down, then as I stood there petting her and comforting her with my hands supporting her head, I could feel the life force leave her body.  Her physical reality changed in an instant from soft, to hard and I could feel her body move for a lifted position to a deflated one.  That energy can be seen and felt especially when we we compare or experience it next to a lifeless inaminate body.

What is it that animates us? If there truly is an energy that enlivens and animates us (which I believe there is) , what are we doing with it? Are we going out into the day appreciating the power we have been given? Are we animating?


1. not animate; lifeless.
2. spiritless; sluggish; dull.
3. (of a linguistic item) used with reference to objects, concepts, and beings regarded as lacking perception and volition (opposed to animate).

vb (tr)
1. to give life to or cause to come alive
2. to make lively; enliven
3. to encourage or inspire
4. to impart motion to; move to action or work
5. being alive or having life

Which one are you? Today I animate!!

”Blessings on your journey”

Life’s supposed to be fun

Are you old enough to Remember the TV show Route 66? It was about two guys travel and adventures in his corvette across Route 66. As I remember it, every episode they would get into some adventure relating to a place or time on the road.

“Web site description” – Tod Stiles (George Maharis)  hits the title trans-America highway in his Corvette in search of adventure with friend Buz Murdock (MartinMilner), a survivor of New York’s mean streets. The two work odd jobs as they meet and interact with colorful characters and find themselves plunged into one situation after another, some of them romantic, some of them very dangerous.

Much like the show Route 66, we also travel along a highway daily, being pulled and pushed into different situations and interactions with others. In the show they were looking for adventure and welcomed new situations and interactions.  Often in our travels in life we dont feel we have the luxury of looking for the excitement of new adventures along our path.  We’re so busy and caught up in our routine, our job, or expectations for ourselves we miss most of what is going on around us.

Recently I wrote about the idea of needing a good map for finding our way to a place of joy and wonderment.  Perhaps the goal shouldn’t be getting down the road the fastest or on the most direct route?  Perhaps it’s reflecting on why we’re on the highway.  Today My mission is to travel the road ahead of me.  I’m going to accomplish the tasks needed, or not (that’s the easy part), but more importantly I’m going to look around and enjoy the detours and welcome new adventures along my path.  Life’s supposed to be fun.  Don’ miss it!

”Blessings on your journey”

Places I never imagined

From my book ‘Living and Dying”

Over the years, the funeral profession has brought me to places I never imagined I would be. I am routinely asked to enter into situations where the family unit is under great stress, at a time when the pain and strain on the family is at an extreme. I am asked to help people travel down a road that even I have not yet traveled. Day after day, there are new situations, new personalities, new pains, struggles and new stories. I’ve been directed to answer the big questions about life and death. At times, I have struggled with how to bring these ideas into my everyday life for those that I serve. It’s been like a master class in life, but after over thirty-five years I realize that it has taken its toll. My body is sacrificially scarred from the emotional and physical trauma of people’s lives. Yet at this point in my life, I somehow feel a strength and resolve, a new resurgence of energy and renewal. Although my body can’t take the pace as it once did, it has found a new rhythm and a new song to sing—and it is good. It is about passion, direction, movement, and love of our connection. In this new place there have been many new lessons, new awakenings and sense of peace. The old adage, “energy follows thought,” rings very true for me. Whatever I put my attention on is brought forth, whether it is lack or abundance, pain or joy.

”Blessings on your journey”

What’s our nature?

From my book “Living and Dying”

I had the experience of living in joy for two weeks around the time of my sixtieth birthday. I like to tell the story of a dream I had at that time, which is where the experience began. In the dream, I was having breakfast with my two-year-old grandson at my favorite diner. He looked to me when he saw a bird fly by and asked me, “Ba Ba,” (he calls me Ba Ba,) and he really couldn’t talk in real life, “how come birds can fly?” My response was, “Because it’s their nature.” After a reflective pause in the conversation, I then asked my grandson, “What is our nature?” His immediate response was, “Our nature’s to love, Ba Ba” and then went casually back to eating his breakfast. As I let that moment of childhood innocence and powerful truth flow over and through me, an overwhelming feeling of love and joy filled my being. I could only think of one thing so I asked him, “How come so many of us don’t follow our nature?” He said, “It’s because we can think. Animals can’t think and when you can think, you can forget.”

The dream brought me to tears for weeks after as I truly saw only love everywhere and for everyone I came into contact with. Whether it was the checkout girl at the register, the gas attendant, my family, or friends, I could only feel joy and love for everyone, I was love in its fullest. It was during that time when I realized that we all have the choice to shape our experience into what it is that we want, and only we can make that happen for ourselves.

Weeks later I returned to the other world, the back and forth world of love and fear. Often when I felt removed from love, I would notice a sense of being lost which made me angry, unloving and in some way less than I wanted to be and feel. It was in this struggle with loss that I became aware of my own loss of connection.
When I felt lost I would spend time in my head trying to figure it all out. Why was it happening? What was wrong with me? Why, why, why? It was this back and forth activity ‘life’ that brought me to this place today.

What I learned and continue to learn is all of our struggles are merely opportunities for re-direction, re-orienting us to find our path. They are really a blessing, a gift. I soon realized that when I felt lost, it was only because I had lost my way—taken a detour off the main highway. Because it was such a frequent event in my life, I just didn’t really notice it.

The experience of those two weeks of pure love and joy brought me to a place where I now recognize more frequently that feeling of disconnection—and I don’t like it. If we can find a way to re-orient our attention with our source, getting back to that main highway, when we feel these things, we can find our way back. We can return to the place that connects us with all things in our universe, a perpetual energy zone where all things are possible. Maybe all we need is a good map!

”Blessings on your journey”

All shall be well

All shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of thing shall be well…for there is a Force of love moving through the universe that holds us fast and will never let us go.  JULIAN OF NORWICH

Life, is not what we see, but what we’ve projected. It’s not what we’ve felt, but what we’ve decided. It’s not what we’ve experienced, but how we’ve remembered it. It’s not what we’ve forged, but what we’ve allowed. And it’s not who’s appeared, but who we’ve summoned.

So, this should serve us well, until we find what we already have.

“Blessings on your journey”

Please don’t loose sight of me

I just finished watching the shack again this morning.  What a great reminder of what it is we are here for.  The three things that stood out for me today were,

When all you see is pain, you loose sight of me,

We were created to be loved, and

No matter what you’re going through, you never have to do it alone.

So as I step out into the world today, join me.  Please don’t loose sight of me, remember I love you and no matter what your going through, you never have to do it alone!

”Blessings on your journey”