Freedom!

From my book “Living and Dying”

Freedom

“Go out, go out I beg you and taste the beauty of the wild. Behold the miracle of the earth with all the wonder of a child.” Edna Jaques

A good friend offered me a thought she had after reading this book, and it goes like this: “There are times when we want to shield the ones we love from pain. But the only true way to healing is through our pain. It is through our connection to those we have lost that we are able to find a peace in our hearts. It is through our connection that we ultimately find our peace”.
She also went on to say, “Connection exists in life, in death, and all places in between.”
I am personally very grateful for her input and openness because it reflects her willingness to embrace her connection and transition through life. It shows her willingness to live a life of emotion, experience, living in the moment, with an openness to change and growth in the midst of personal pain. A close and personal love was taken from her just a short time ago as it will and has happened to all of us. It is apparent that it is a challenge and a difficult transition as we work to understand the perplexity of life and death as we navigate our time, moment to moment, day to day. It is apparent that it is hard to embrace a new normal in forging new relationships while maintaining ones of old. Yet, I am confident that we can and will find a way. I am confident for her because she has acknowledged that the only true way to healing is through her pain. It is this simple truth, as difficult as it may seem at times, that will set all of us free.

“Set yourself free from anything that might hinder you in becoming the person you want to be. Free yourself from the uncertainties about your abilities or the worth of your dreams, from the fears that you may not be able to achieve them or that they won’t be what you wanted.
Set yourself free from the past. The good things from yesterday are still yours in memory; the things you want to forget you will, for tomorrow is only a sunrise away. Free yourself from regret or guilt, and promise to live this day as fully as you can.
Set yourself free from the expectations of others, and never feel guilty or embarrassed if you do not live up to their standards. You are most important to yourself; live by what you feel is best and right for you. Others will come to respect your integrity and honesty.
Set yourself free to simply be yourself, and you will soar higher than you’ve ever dreamed.”
– Edmund O’Neil
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“Blessings on your journey”

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Be the ball!

“Don’t be afraid to go where you’ve never gone and do what you’ve never done, because both are necessary to have what you’ve never had and be who you’ve never been”

Be the ball!

Much like the ball, life doesn’t always go where we intend it to.  Kick it, hit it, throw it, do something to it.  Do not be afraid of the opportunity.  Witness the surroundings and feel the exhilaration and the energy generated in its movement.  Watch how it bounces of the different surfaces, the speed it generates and its affect on the environment.  If we follow its movement, it can take us to new and exciting places.

“Blessings on your journey”

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Energy and emotion

The energy associated with emotion is very strong and one that can be very difficult to embrace. It will cause us to move in and out of our comfort zone, and it will challenge us to what feels like a breaking point. It will feel large, in charge, and scary at times, but it has its purpose. It is there to move us toward something new. It is there to make us choose. It is there for our own good, to shock us out of our old patterns. It is there to be embraced and it will move us towards love. The dilemma in all of this is that we have a choice.

What’s your plan?

Today I thought it would be nice to fire up the wood stove at the cottage and spend a quiet day before the holiday festivities begin. I’ve just finished packing the wood rack with fire wood, which should last us a few months, (A little exercise with the wood pile always feels good when its done).  Now I’m sitting at the computer gazing at the partially frozen waters, while Christmas music plays in the background.

While this might sound quite nice, and it is, there are still mental fragments of frustrations, disappointments and concerns floating about in my mind.  Most of the time as I navigate my day those thoughts are fleeting, but they still linger in the background and dark recesses of my mind. Waiting eagerly to bring new doubt, fear, and apprehension to my world.

Recently, I’ve been focused on the idea of how our thoughts and upbringing define us, and, how I have the choice to decided how I wish my life to be defined. Today, I could choose to be defined by Plan A, which is to pull out the vodka and float into the numbness and mindlessness it affords me.  Or, be defined by Plan B and embrace the day, find the joy that is always hiding there, and focus on where I can give my love and attention to others. How I choose to be defined is really all there is I can do. The intention and vision I have for myself will affect my energetic vibration, which will affect my world and everyones world vibrating around me.

Today, I will do Plan B!

What’s your plan?

“Blessings on your journey”

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Connection

From “Living and Dying” the book

What is truly remarkable to me is how we either feel or do not feel connection. We can feel connected through family, friends, work, social, and cultural experiences. We are designed to feel connected emotionally, spiritually, mentally and physically. Our shared connection can feel intensely good, yet there are days when we feel completely alone. How can that be? What is it that disconnects us? Where does the connection go? Is it a physical disconnect? Are we hurting so badly that the energy needed to connect is hidden and blocked? Is it an emotional disconnection? Is it so bad sometimes that our anger, or fear, blocks our ability to communicate our thoughts? Or is it a spiritual disconnect, where we feel completely separate in our growth and our faith? Do we often feel disappointed with God for not helping us find our way and for not answering our prayers?

I believe it’s all of the above, and I have experienced it all just as you have.
There are many great books and speakers talking about a new age, a new phase in our world. The main theme of these books revolves around the concept of returning to our source or connecting with our source. What I’m most happy about these days is that the more people I listen to, the more I am hearing the same thing. This is a time filled with struggle, fear, and trepidation. Yet it is exciting to see these things as they are slowly being eroded by love. The world is emerging to a new place as if a cloud has been removed from our heavens, as if something is uncovering new truths about the universe, as if there is a new and strengthened connection. It is undeniably a very powerful and transforming time—albeit extreme at times.

With all types of connection there is an internal experience or reaction that either feels foreign and odd, or good and right. While I believe we all have a common spiritual connection and a lot of what I write about reflects that idea, there are many other ways in which we connect. In fact, the mere experience of reading these words connects us in a world of thought, and that experience, that thought will undoubtedly create an energy that is felt as emotion. I know that for some, the words on these pages will produce an emotional response. I know that for some, the words on these pages will cause disagreement and reaction. I know that for some, the words on these pages will move them to a new place of understanding. I know that the mere fact that we react to being connected in any way is the purpose of our lives.

“Blessings on your journey”

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Joy!

Joy – for our hearts!

From “Living and Dying” the book

I had the experience of living in a state of joy for two weeks around the time of my sixtieth birthday. I like to tell the story of a dream I had at that time, which is where the experience began. In the dream, I was having breakfast with my two-year-old grandson at my favorite diner in Livonia NY. He looked to me when he saw a bird fly by and asked me, “Ba Ba,” (he calls me Ba Ba,) and he really couldn’t talk in real life, “how come birds can fly?” My response was, “Because it’s their nature.” After a reflective pause in the conversation, I then asked my grandson, “What is our nature?” His immediate response was, “Our nature’s to love, Ba Ba” and then went casually back to eating his breakfast. As I let that moment of childhood innocence and powerful truth flow over and through me, an overwhelming feeling of love and joy filled my being. I could only think of one thing so I asked him, “How come so many of us don’t follow our nature?” He said, “It’s because we can think. Animals can’t think and when you can think, you can forget.”

The dream brought me tears of joy for weeks after as I truly saw only love everywhere and for everyone I came into contact with. Whether it was the checkout girl at the register, the gas attendant, my family, or friends, I could only feel joy and love for everyone, I was love in its fullest. It was during that time when I realized that we all have the choice to shape our experience into what it is that we want, and only we can make that happen for ourselves.

Weeks later I returned to the other world, the back and forth world of love and fear. Often when I felt removed from love, I would notice a sense of being lost which made me angry, unloving and in some way less than I wanted to be and feel. It was in this struggle with loss that I became aware of my own loss of connection.
When I felt lost I would spend time in my head trying to figure it all out. Why was it happening? What was wrong with me? Why, why, why? It was this back and forth activity ‘life’ that brought me to this place today.
What I learned and continue to learn is all of our struggles are merely opportunities for re-direction, re-orienting us to find our path. They are really a blessing, a gift. I soon realized that when I felt lost, it was only because I had lost my way—taken a detour off the main highway. Because it was such a frequent event in my life, I just didn’t really notice it.

The experience of those two weeks of pure love and joy brought me to a place where I now recognize more frequently that feeling of disconnection—and I don’t like it. If we can find a way to re-orient our attention with our source, getting back to that main highway, when we feel these things, we can find our way back. We can return to the place that connects us with all things in our universe, a perpetual energy zone where all things are possible. Maybe all we need is a good map!

“Blessings on your journey”

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